One of my favorite verses in the Bible is from Proverbs 19:21. This verse says "many are the plans in a mans heart, but it is only the Lords purpose that prevails." I have found this verse to be so true in my life through different situations, but NEVER has played out in such a way as it has this week. This week was a very hard, stressful, and confusing week. Its not going to be 100% better next week or the next, but one day the Lords will will prevail and I will understand why I've had to go through the things I've gone through this week.
As I have said on here before I have had one other serious relationship before B. I do know what heart ache has felt like and I have used it to help my friends get through challenging times in their lives. Now that I am experiencing it all over again I am now getting all the advice I once gave them back. And its a lot harder to hear that to say. I do have hope and a heart full of faith that God is not going to give me anything that I cannot handle. I know that Gods plan is so amazing that I just cant even picture it.
Its like when you were a little girl and you dreamed of meeting Cinderella at Disney, when you finally met her she was just as beautiful, just as amazing as you always pictured her to be. But while you were getting to Disney you couldnt even think of how it would be. Thats how my God love story is going to be.
I was so in love with a boy that I can not even begin to describe the Love I am going to feel for my husband one day. People I tell you ITS GOING TO BE AMAZING. So hubs if your reading this get ready for some Mindy lovin!
I dont regret anything, I know this has taught me a lot. It has taught me trust, commitment, and how to love and be a best friend to the person you are in a relationship with. Though my plans didnt come out of this I know Gods plan is going to be so MUCH better than what I can picture for my life.
Pray for Big things-God always wins,
Love
Mindy
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
Dear Husband
I have started reading "Praying for my Future Husband, Preparing your heart for his" and it is such an awesome book. In this book there was a prayer at the end of the chapter about is your future husband a GOD lover. This prayer really spoke to me and I thought I would share it with you. I am beginning to pray for my husband from the "garden" of my heart. Jesus is the branch and I his daughter is the vine.
"Dear Lord Jesus, its so amazing that You can see my future husband now. You know him.
You love him. Lord, since You know the man You have designed for me, I pray that any other relationship will be unappealing to him. I pray that if he is giving away a part of his heart, his emotions, or his body, You will show him Your better way.
Most of all I pray he'll be a God Lover. Not only do I ask that You distract and keep him from other, harmful relationships but also that You draw him closer to You. May his heart be so full of You that he doesnt need anything, anyone else...until the time You appoint to bring me into his life.
And for every day of his life, hold him in the palm of your hand. Amen." (Praying for your future Husband)
You love him. Lord, since You know the man You have designed for me, I pray that any other relationship will be unappealing to him. I pray that if he is giving away a part of his heart, his emotions, or his body, You will show him Your better way.
Most of all I pray he'll be a God Lover. Not only do I ask that You distract and keep him from other, harmful relationships but also that You draw him closer to You. May his heart be so full of You that he doesnt need anything, anyone else...until the time You appoint to bring me into his life.
And for every day of his life, hold him in the palm of your hand. Amen." (Praying for your future Husband)
Friday, July 8, 2011
a lesson in patience
This week one of my best friends, roommates, and sorority sisters came and stayed a few days with me. I have not seen her in what seemed like forever, and when we are around each other we are always bound to get into a deep conversation with each other about our lives. Though I will not be putting up the details of that conversation up here, I will tell you that God is working in both of our lives with patience, but in very different ways.
I am learning that my time will come, and though its not my season of blissfulness at the moment it may be someone else time. I know the goals that I want to get out of life, but its all about Gods timing and his will being met.
Right now I am ordering a book called "Praying for my Future Husband" and while reading the blog of the author I found this quote that describes what I am going through.
I am learning that my time will come, and though its not my season of blissfulness at the moment it may be someone else time. I know the goals that I want to get out of life, but its all about Gods timing and his will being met.
Right now I am ordering a book called "Praying for my Future Husband" and while reading the blog of the author I found this quote that describes what I am going through.
Maybe right now is not my time, but God is going to be even more gracious when it comes my time. Maybe things are not looking my way now, but when God provides he provides better than I ever imagined. Thank you God, for providing for me despite my gift of patience. I ask that you help me be content and enjoy the moments that you are giving me, and the days that you are blessing me with instead of trying to control the future for myself. Your plan will be done in my life, you will fight for me. I just need to be still.
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Let the children come
Yesterday marked the first reason why I am doing summer camp this summer. Yesterday was a monumental day in my life as well as the life of three of my campers.
As we were sitting in our small groups (bible study) and I was doing the lesson, my first and second graders were asking me really good questions about God. They asked how he could just be here and not come from anything. They asked how Jesus and God were two different people. These questions made me think, but they also challenged me to give them the very best answer that I could give them. These questions gave me a flash back to the night I asked Jesus come into my life while sitting in the living room with my mom and dad after asking these same type questions. I responded to my campers that many times these questions are reasons why people are not in Gods family, because they do not have hard evidence on how God was here, but that is where faith comes in. I shared with them my favorite bible verse in Hebrews "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not yet see." (vs. 11:1)
Yesterday was a hard day for me, I could have easily walked up to my boss and told them that I could not do this anymore, that I was done with summer camp. Yesterday I disrespected in so many ways by one of my children that it broke me down and I allowed Satan to tell me that I couldnt do this anymore. After the bible study and talking with three of my campers I will not focus on Satan. I know "satan does not win" and he should not win in my life. Yesterday my faith in things not see was the faith that I would make a difference in my campers lives this summer. By living out Gods love in my life and showing a Christian spirit and lifestyle three of my campers asked Jesus to come into their hearts. They asked to have a relationship with God. As I prayed prayers with each one of my campers and spoke with them about the decisions that they made, I was filled with JOY that the kingdom of God was Celebrating just as I was Celebrating for my campers. As I watched each one of them tell their parents grinning from ear to ear with excitement-I know I am here for a reason, and that reason is to share the love of Christ to my campers, so that more came become imitators of God.
I pray that these children will continue to build their christian principles and values, and will continue to strengthen their relationships with Christ. I pray that God will continue to bless me in helping me live out my faith daily, and be examples for them. I also pray that you too are being imitators of God for the little children watching you in your life. Let the children come to the lord, and walk by faith.
Love,
Mindy
As we were sitting in our small groups (bible study) and I was doing the lesson, my first and second graders were asking me really good questions about God. They asked how he could just be here and not come from anything. They asked how Jesus and God were two different people. These questions made me think, but they also challenged me to give them the very best answer that I could give them. These questions gave me a flash back to the night I asked Jesus come into my life while sitting in the living room with my mom and dad after asking these same type questions. I responded to my campers that many times these questions are reasons why people are not in Gods family, because they do not have hard evidence on how God was here, but that is where faith comes in. I shared with them my favorite bible verse in Hebrews "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not yet see." (vs. 11:1)
Yesterday was a hard day for me, I could have easily walked up to my boss and told them that I could not do this anymore, that I was done with summer camp. Yesterday I disrespected in so many ways by one of my children that it broke me down and I allowed Satan to tell me that I couldnt do this anymore. After the bible study and talking with three of my campers I will not focus on Satan. I know "satan does not win" and he should not win in my life. Yesterday my faith in things not see was the faith that I would make a difference in my campers lives this summer. By living out Gods love in my life and showing a Christian spirit and lifestyle three of my campers asked Jesus to come into their hearts. They asked to have a relationship with God. As I prayed prayers with each one of my campers and spoke with them about the decisions that they made, I was filled with JOY that the kingdom of God was Celebrating just as I was Celebrating for my campers. As I watched each one of them tell their parents grinning from ear to ear with excitement-I know I am here for a reason, and that reason is to share the love of Christ to my campers, so that more came become imitators of God.
I pray that these children will continue to build their christian principles and values, and will continue to strengthen their relationships with Christ. I pray that God will continue to bless me in helping me live out my faith daily, and be examples for them. I also pray that you too are being imitators of God for the little children watching you in your life. Let the children come to the lord, and walk by faith.
Love,
Mindy
Monday, June 27, 2011
Busy Bees
Hey Bloggers,
So sorry it has been forever since I have updated. But I have real reasons as to why I havent had the time.
1. Fathers day:
I love my father and all the wonderful encouragement he gives me each and everyday. He has truly been one of the many reasons I am who I am today. He models Gods love in his life and makes me strive to live my life for God daily.
2. Two and a half years:
I celebrated two and a half years with the boyfriend last week. I am so incredibly blessed to have him in my life and very thankful for being introduced to him. As I have written before I had just come out of a bad break up when I met him, but he took the time and showed me what love really is. I love our friendship, our relationship, and our love. I am glad God has blessed us with each other.
3. WORK WORK WORK:
I am working as a summer camp consular at a church in a near town. I LOVE it, but the hours are LONG. I get very discouraged many weeks and allow satan in my life consuming negative thoughts and attitudes about my job, but I have been praying for a spirit filled with joy and positivity radiating through me. I have had many reasons why I should not be doing what I am doing this summer because of selfishness, but when I feel a child wrap their arms around me giving me a big hug goodbye-I know its worth it, when i see a child singing in chapel with their arms raised praising God- I know I am making a difference, when I hear the excitement in their voice when they say my name in the morning-I know God has me here for a specific reason.
So sorry it has been forever since I have updated. But I have real reasons as to why I havent had the time.
1. Fathers day:
I love my father and all the wonderful encouragement he gives me each and everyday. He has truly been one of the many reasons I am who I am today. He models Gods love in his life and makes me strive to live my life for God daily.
2. Two and a half years:
I celebrated two and a half years with the boyfriend last week. I am so incredibly blessed to have him in my life and very thankful for being introduced to him. As I have written before I had just come out of a bad break up when I met him, but he took the time and showed me what love really is. I love our friendship, our relationship, and our love. I am glad God has blessed us with each other.
3. WORK WORK WORK:
I am working as a summer camp consular at a church in a near town. I LOVE it, but the hours are LONG. I get very discouraged many weeks and allow satan in my life consuming negative thoughts and attitudes about my job, but I have been praying for a spirit filled with joy and positivity radiating through me. I have had many reasons why I should not be doing what I am doing this summer because of selfishness, but when I feel a child wrap their arms around me giving me a big hug goodbye-I know its worth it, when i see a child singing in chapel with their arms raised praising God- I know I am making a difference, when I hear the excitement in their voice when they say my name in the morning-I know God has me here for a specific reason.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
clothe yourself in good fruit
Growing up in church the fruit of the spirits is something that has constantly been drilled into my head. At summer camp this summer we are studying the Fruit of the spirit, and how our lives should look with them in it. When I first heard that we were learning about this I was not too over joyed. But little did I know though these fruits have been drilled into my life every year since I can remember, they now mean something so much more to me. It is how my life should be each and everyday. Not only am I studying these fruit with my children who are eager to learn God's word, I am also having them apply to my life.
How are you wearing these fruits in your life?
How are you wearing these fruits in your life?
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Give me Faith
These past few weeks I have been dreading the start of work, a summer camp day camp where I will be a consoler with 20 1st and 2nd graders from 8-6 every day. I have dreaded driving to the meetings only to not have anyone to talk to because I was the only one who didn’t know anyone there,. I have dreaded the hours of work that I will be getting also including a summer class, boyfriend, and a life outside of that. I have dreaded having to do something all day everyday for the rest of my summer with no vacations and that put a lot of bitterness in my heart. I kept saying God why could I not find this job, or why could this job not have come available earlier to me. I have questioned the place God has put me in every moment of every day.
As I got ready tonight for our open house I still questioned it. When putting on a BRIGHT NEON orange T-shirt that was required for the staff to wear I kept saying “I look like a highlighter” “I don’t want to go to this” “I don’t want to do this” I made statement after statement about how this isn’t where I was supposed to be because I did not know anyone before interring into this task. When I walked into the church building tonight I still felt the same way, still filled with anger that I had chosen this as my summer job because I was not going to have any free time or any time to do anything for me.
I set up my room with papers that the parents should receive and then I waited. I began to pray and ask God to change my heart. I could not sit and get these children and parents excited about summer camp when all I wanted to do was run to the nearest exit, hop in my car and drive home. I asked God to do a work in me and soften my heart. One by one as the children came to pick up there stuff for camp I was beginning to realize why God placed me here. I will be dealing with children this summer and teaching them about how wonderful God is. Each one of them has a purpose in this world and a place and I hope that I will begin to help them see that their hope is in God.
After meeting the children we had to attend the church’s Sunday night worship. I was still not enthused about this because still I was new, I didn’t know anyone and being a pastors child when visiting churches I always have my family right with me. As the worship team started singing I heard a familiar song…
“I need you to soften my heart
To break me apart
I need you to open my eyes
To see that You're shaping my life
Give me faith to trust what you say
That you're good and your love is great
I'm broken inside, I give you my life”
This is what I have done this summer, I have given my life to God to do his work and help change the lives of my campers. Through God I can make a HUGE impact in everyone that I come in contact with. No more bad attitudes, no more questioning, God has given me the faith to take this new step and this new experience.
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